My thoughts

I think, having access to internet is not a way to be successful, for me. Because now I am spending time on the screen rather than doing my homework.

1. 2 history essays - written nothing

2. past years maths - did not even complete the text book's exercise

3. accounting - supposedly finished but I guess I forgot

4. cost accounting - never complete the questions

5. econs tutorials - damn berlambak

and these things come:

1. dance practices - rather not to talk about it, it gets to my nerve. the smell, the silence, the carelessness, the complaints, the ignored ones. Okay, I'm upset already

2. montage - stupidity to my unbelievable anger

3. takde keje. best jadi vice, tak payah buat kerja, orang lain dah buatkan. *sarcasm intended*

I am very very very offended by a lecturer who is biased, and at times ungrateful. I wish she could open her eyes, and instead of laughing, she should have guided, that's what teaching is.

advices

after the advices, which I appreciate much, I should not express my feelings anymore. My rage should be just kept for me and my closest buddies.

I want to thank world.

I may did harms but those were not intentional.

So, here I go, new blogging experience, never to express my frustration :P

btw, this weekend, transformers and some jogging (yeah right) :DDDD

I feel

betrayed, really really hurt.

I wish for apologies.

I don't deserve

a best friend.

Because all I want now is just things back to before, waaaaaaay before.

My turn to sulk, because I cannot stand people sulking over things I had to reach out for, ended up for me as... not beneficial, at all. Hmmm

Maybe I have to stop worrying about people's problems and have my own.

But for eternity, God will be with me and I am not alone.

Sometimes...

I wish people would just leave.

So I can have the CHOCOLATES by my own! haha.

I'm craving for world's best chocolates, because I'm fat just like that!

CHOCOLATES! CHOCOLATES! CHOCOLATES!

This is my third attempt to blog something today, given the previous two blank boxes when time strike my fingers, but now I'm stuck here in the little space at the living hall hijacking people's computer just to get the oxygen to blog.

Maybe when I say these it would sound much better because I seriously have the hardest time too reading with a speed, but my pacing is just too bad in reading.

Hence, my history paper.

ARGH

I've done my reading! I've done my reading!
I've done my reading! :'(

But the worst crap to happen happened today. Time! Time constraint!

I think Napoleon took up my time too much that I've neglected some other question until I ditched summarisation of my third essay. Stupid fourth essay. Argh1111111

While writing this, I have the thoughts of being at least a month or more in advance and know that all my rantings will be recorded in this pretty much a blog rather than articulated to some strangers or even my housemates or condom-mates, the results of my papers will finally emerge.

At that time I'll look back and probably read this because I have pretty much a memory loss for things happening a month earlier and know that I've complained, things were done and only prayers could save my ass. Amen.

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Thank god for Rahman's offering to hit OU again. Because I would have been sulking in my room for quite some time before I finally doze off because I force it!
(Aman, kalau kau baca ni, amacam? happy dapat cari blog aku? haha)

To the little fairy in the snow globe, can you do me a favour? Stay in the globe?
(Thanks for granting my wish, I really did go home :P)

To my mysterious friend who enjoys having secret gender and identity, thanks for your company last Thurday. It is probably the most significant evening I've spent with you. So cheers to you :D
(You sure you don't let me disclose your name here? XD takpe, nanti ar. haha nanti. :P)

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Let me say a little cheers to happy people around the world.

Wolverine was awesome. Angels and Demons, er... *beeps*

Home

I'm yearning to go home.

Home.

Home.

Home.

Home.

Home.

Home.

Home.

Home.


this is home, my home...

I need my loneliness. Tranquil time for myself. The world with no one except for a few, a few!

Even if the world is upside down!

KEEP THE FAITH

Drogba can fuck himself upside down!

"Fucking disgrace!"

Anything happens...

WE ARE STILL THE BEST!

and van Persie, Fabregas and Sagna will always be in my heart...

*I don't dare to upload Sagna's good look here, so google him yourself :P

Happy Birthday

Happy Birthday Zan Zahidah Zainal aka Idah @ Jan @ Mak

haha. happy 19th birthday zan, sekarang boleh kahwin. Aku sedia nak menikahkan, ramai nak jadi saksi dah ni haha.

Anyway sorry aku menjahanamkan baby mylo kau. aku geram sebenarnya, rasa nak picit2 je camera kau tu. tapi memandangkan harga yang cantik gak, pikir dua kali haha

happy birthday zan :D

*nazirul kirim salam*

Selamat Ulang Tahun

Fatin Aqilah bt Ab Razak :D

May Allah bless you and have a cherished life,

remember;
troubles will draw people closer,
comfort will make grateful people,
friends are people,
so when you are faced with problems,
friends will be close to you,
when you are happy,
friends are grateful for you :D


and...

Thank you soooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooo much Yvonne Ho Qian Ru :D

AS in less than 2 weeks, wish me luck folks and have a good life :D (I just couldn't stop smiling)

Never

ever ever ever ever ever ever ever ever ever ever ever ever ever ever ever ever ever ever ever ever ever ever give in too much, too quickly. Or else you'll get hurt.

HAPPY BIRTHDAY

SYHU! walaupun susah nak eja nama kau, tapi still, I'm wishing you a HAPPY BIRTHDAY! YAY.

you are 19, and continue to rock. Best giler kawan dengan kau, sebab budak KYS tak ada beza ngan budak SBU, gila gak. haha. and keep on singing sebab suara kau sedap, keep on dancing because kau 'bitchy' and lastly kau continue to act sebab kau expressive!

:D

I need a new pair of flip-flop. Lucky my dad is driving me to Quiksilver or else I might fall when it rains and Sterling has got slippery floor.

Yesterday was fun, with the sifu of bowling to teach, at least now I know bowling is not just for me to forget of things off the lanes. Haha

I need to bathe.

Alep: Eee Taylor Swift, did you hear that? He voice is so bad LIVE!
Acad: Eyh no no no, the video clip-lah! Aku kena tengok Love Story sebelum tidur!
Alep: Psycho!
Ling: Who's Taylor Swift?
Alep: Miley wannabe.
Acad: ARGHH! Keira tu macam... macam.. high-class whore!
Alep: ARGHHH!!!
Acad: Keira is like... is like... Victoria wannabe! *a slap in the face, not literally of course* Keira Beckham!
Alep: OH NO!!!
Acad: YES!
Alep: Taylor is... is... Oprah's daughter! She's black hah!
Acad: NOOOO. Tapi aku suke Keira jugak la...

*Rashad surrendered*

Hifzhul, the Scary One

Hifzhul just signed in into someone's FB account and chatted with a girl.

He confessed to have been messaging girls using the phones of the guys, and checked our inbox.

So Derek and I wanted to confiscate his phone, he ended up stuffing the phone into his mouth!



... and wiped it to our couch!

God, mercy!

and now he dropped his phone. erghhh

Somthing forgotten

HAPPY BELATED BIRTHDAY KAUTSAR!

Although it is very rare that I talk to her seriously, I am glad to have as a friend :D
because I can literally blurt out things I have no guts to say to others because I think others won't understand. Kautsar is like... a sister, the OLD one. Haha. :P

Anyways, class calling. The last MPW class of my life! YEAH! I must get an A for Islamic Studies, must keep a good clean record.

Arsenal will do it :D

p/s: now I want to study in UK so bad!!

The secured one.

Not the special one, but the secured one. I'm so happy, and now I have a brother :D
Maybe because I don't have any siblings, and it's so sentimental when I got to have a brother at least. Next I should get a sister.... and some step-children!

Btw, thanks Sherene for letting me blog from your lappie.

Trials is still on, but only two papers left. 4 days to study Economics, but I'm still lazy to revise. Why? Because of this idiotic movie, the Hitchikers' Guide to the Galaxy or something. Ergh. It is so confusing because one, it's in British, second its narration was so fast that I only get things few minutes later when a nuclear bomb turned into a whale, or a spaceship into a couch. It's annoying at a point, but I enjoyed the stupidity. Reminds me of how stupid British can get when they tried to be funny.

I'M SO HAPPY NELLIE GOT INTO BERKELEY!!! Now I can prance around for having a best friend there, and she MUST get me a sweat from US. And Nicole, you can get me a sheep from New Zealand too! and yea, I miss you soulmate haha

I have sleepy eyes, but I guess I should be studying instead. Or maybe just wait till this movie ends at least :P

Bye

April has come

surprisingly. I am supposed to fill my recent nights with studies, but I'm starting to get bored of it and now I regret the seconds I ditch books and turn to other things.

I've got the first April Fool prank pulled off successfully. at 12.30 am

Zairin: *texts* Bad news, I'm pregnant, 2 months!
She missed call, a sign for me to contact her back.
Then she went on describing how she is scared and the guy ignored her. My first thought was seriously April Fool, then she said it was serious, my thoughts changed. So my final thought was that she really is pregnant. That is before she burst into laughter because her prank happened. -.-


This is probably the latest April Fool pranks I've ever got. Years before I would always get pranks as early as those messages dated 31 March. Haha, maybe this year they repented after the ignorant reply I gave. Seriously, I don't treat April Foolesque messages the same, because it is so.. well... dumb to send prank messages at expected day, 1 April.

Anyways, as trial is approaching, I am getting really worried for my study mood. Where has the mood gone for these few days? Err.

I am not as expressive in writing as I am in real life, so some people thought I wrote garbage in my blog, but what do I care. It is mine.

Amier and Amin are sleeping over tonight, and the guests are already asleep. I can't get myself into the Z's. Maybe because I slept till 2 pm today. Owh, did I tell you I'm sick? I've got the full package of all kind of sickness; flu, coughing, sore throat, headache and fever.

Good things come and go, so do friends.

Have good days folks.

Adious

Today is the best day.

Because I ate world's best Cheese Nan and Chicken Satay from Ampang (oh yes, old days)

and DURIANS! haha suckersss!

If durians don't make me smile, it would make me fart.

and now the smell is... AWESOME!
dude.

(i realised at times I used improper inside jokes)

It is Wednesday.

which means I just blew away half of my holidays.

Crap. I did not make a proud progress in my studies. Though I have done some of the tutorials, but seriously, there are four sets of objective questions, and three data response questions. Plus the remaining essays from the previous topics. ECONS! shyt.

A great news, I just found out that instead of A for maths, UCL requires an A* in it. OH GOD.

I think I told almost everyone that I spent most of my time in front of two screens, the TV and the monitor. I didn't find it productive too if I may second what you think (damn you sceptics). Well, msn messenger too is getting more boring. I got an excellent fresh proof (that is like... 2.44AM 18/3/09)

Syazlina just sent you a nudge.

You have just sent a nudge.

Syazlina just sent you a nudge.

You have just sent a nudge.

You have just sent a nudge.

Syazlina just sent you a nudge.

You have just sent a nudge.

Syazlina just sent you a nudge.

You have just sent a nudge.

Syazlina just sent you a nudge.

You have just sent a nudge.

You have just sent a nudge.

Syazlina just sent you a nudge.

You have just sent a nudge.

Syazlina just sent you a nudge.

You have just sent a nudge.

You have just sent a nudge.

Syazlina just sent you a nudge.

You have just sent a nudge.

Syazlina says:
done

alep says:
done with?

good times... not.

Ned: (angered) Homer, you are the worst human I've ever met!

Homer: wow, I got that pretty easy

lol

The bullies: Dude, you kissed a girl, that's so gay!!

Nelson: No I did not.

haha. The Simpsons is so classic, that they are now in their 20th season.

To tell you the truth, since Monday, I've not left home. Even I had to say no to Rashad for an outing in Sunway today, and no to Nina (twice) for night outings (gila kau, nak kena rompak lagi ke) I am tied in the house. Some sort of voluntarily grounded myself for the entire week. I won't leave the house till I finish my economics tutorials and revising the whole macroeconomics! (ambitious, I got that a lot at times, so just keep up with me)

Btw, Miss Hema had asked us to proceed with a page on Love=Tan90(oh god, this shit does look like it spells TANGO, no wonder those dimwits in college kept on saying that). Basically we can just write anything and putting pictures and stuff (as long as its not animated since it's going to be published as a magazine). So she sent us Daniel's one. And I literally went "wtf" because he did a great job with it. It was a nicely done layout! So I came out with a page too, which I think would not be as nice as Daniel's but I'm uploading it anyway because for the first time I think this is the most personal page I've ever done. Yay to Love=Tan90

laters. see y'all folks

this is the bad part

it's holiday, the time where I wasted most on TV and computer. I don't even like the idea. I cannot help myself from being NOT studying to studying. It takes me a lot of will to study, seriously. Despite my aim to get no more B's in my trial, I still have the dreams of getting less than 2A's, and probably lower. I have to double my 2A's into 4A's! No matter what (even if the sky is falling because that won't happen. suckers)

The play is already over, and now we are compiling the pictures and our notes so all the memories are well kept in a presentable archive at least (so I will not forget how I sprained my ankle, so I did not jump off the stage on the real day). I thought declining the audition would at least help me to focus more on my studies. Clearly, it did not make me spending more time reading Economics (not that I regret for not going for the audition). But one thing I am assured of; the free nights with no more practices and sulking. :P

Let me grab my spectacles and continue typing. So my AS exams will start on the 13th... of June. No it is not that long time to go, because minus the time I would spend on eating, watching TV, sleeping and pinching nipples, that makes it less than few weeks for me.

Nellie the wiseMAN once said "work hard and everything fall into place." and that shall be the new arousing for my goals. ha. ha.

I checked out the movie channels (this explains the time for TV), but it got less than 5 movies that excite me. Sweeney Todd, erm, erm, I think that is the only one I am looking for to watch.

Sleep. Sleep. I love my bed.

Brad and Angelina, stop trying to adopt me! :D

the power of NO

Here is the few kinds of NOes that I got through out the week.

1. Simultaneous "NO" from my parents when I asked them about the audition AD asked few of us to go to. The chance is there, but it is fine by me if my parents mutually agreed that it is not the time. Plus, Yvonne too thinks that this is not our time yet, maybe ours is somewhere in West End (shut up, nothing wrong of being ambitious) hehe. So why do I want to risk my slight chance of studying in UK (hence the West End dream) with the audition for a play somewhere next year. BUT I'M REALLY SAD! AD asked me to join Yvonne, Rashad and Syhu to audition, but I learn from the best actress, we can always have another chance somewhere. Hehe Thanks Yvonne for things you said, did and bought. YOU ARE THE BEST! (I've never this sincere before haha)

2. "NO NO NO. What is the value? He is stupid! Stupid is the value!" says Mr Thiru. Just couldn't resist the giggles I always get.

3. "NO! I know how to differentiate drawer and cupboard, I am not stupid okay!"
a very hurting line, period. I got scolded by Rashad, and it was scary. I promised I won't do that again hehe. He apologised, and now I feel bad because I was the one at guilt for aggravating him when he was watching TV. But it's okay, he's my best buddy here in Sterling, I guess I could not stand being angry at him always, or else I got no one to pinch my nipples and in the pact to attack Soh's low nipples. :D

4. "No-lah, you better go home early and rest so you can continue with the questions"
5. "No-lah, I think you all better have class with me at 5 la ahhh"
4 and 5 were said by Miss Angeline, my financial accounting lecturer. I try not to comment on them.
But, OMFG.

Fook, is she obsessed over extra hours, because I am not looking foward for it.

(FA additional classess: 5-6 today, friday evenings and saturdays) = total madness.

Fook

hey, it's me again.

I am in the computer lab now. And what the fuck is the commotion at the back about? So noisy, it makes my feet hurt.

You see, when you've got no class, and don't feel like studying, you will ended up doing something not foolish nor clever, but something that will give you eventual worse tedium. And somebody just said "He wanted to kiss me!"
I am so bored that I can hear people's boogers moving. Eeeee

How I am easily annoyed.

I am so lazy to upload pictures. But for the sake of Love=Tan90, please facebook it and look at the photos. Though you might get the shock of your life seeing faces of monkeys with ADD.

It is the toughest thing

The funny thing about Sony phones is that they can't replay songs by its settings. Cow.

The experience

is definitely the best!

Of course.

Nothing feels better when the formula is concluded with the faces of satisfaction and 'omfg it is over and I want to do it again'. Plus the idea of trial in a month. Speaking of feeling relieved.

Maybe the late practices would be cured with the applause. But that does not matter, because what is sweeter than hundreds of uploaded pictures after the curtain call? Seriously, too much to handle to browse each picture and say 'I was in this pic, I wasn't in this pic'. Eventually, we all learn that the group picture would be the most worth it of all other media we could find.

Yes, the group pictures. I am not an anti-climax person, actually.
Despite the smiles I gave and I got, I think everyone knows they are partly superficial.
Ooo, tough word to handle, superficial.

I am not an obsessive-compulsive person, but I am really that bad in handling things. I thought I was the only person that hates sucking up, I am correct, also that I am correct in thinking others are just as selfish and fame-mongering. I wonder where is the value of honesty and friendship now. If it is in sincerity, then I would get friendship from... say... 50 people? That is my assumption, not that I am not frank, but I hope there is more than 50 are honest in being my friends. I don't have the correct number of my friends, because sometimes who I thought my friends are not, and those who are not are more concern of my feet than other things. (btw, I hurt my feet jumping off the stage during the rehearsal, thank you)

It feels so good to let things out of the chest sometimes, but seriously, if I did not keep in touch with you my old friends, that's because... I lost my phone hence your number. Sorry :D

In one way also, I am saying, 'Go away, don't steal my friends. I've got no siblings'

Now it feels the world is upside up again.

It is worth

the money, and my few times of going to OU.

Puteri Gunung Ledang, better than before, and ever.

But what is best?

Love = Tan 90

Just can't wait, just cannot. It is too exciting, and the end of the journey.
I might have started a new one, maybe.

But what is more important? A month for trial. I have to get As or there goes my chance. I just have to.
While saying that, I am in the library with opened books but I've just lost it. I couldn't do my work yet. Maybe a revision on free weekends will help later on. And sleeping hours (History class).

Wanna bet?

I just have to blog

I'M RICH!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

RM 500 a month, take that suckers!

and Wen Chiat

and I'm using his computer.